updating on my life...
alas, it has been quite some time since i updated last... or so it seems. i guess ive been preoccupied with my not so busy but insanely hectic life. yesterday i was sitting with some friends playing a game of cards and listening to some pink floyd... and it hit me. we're getting older... fast... a lot of my friends are having kids now, or already have kids and have started a family... some of my friends just got married and others are engaged. its crazy. time just keeps going by so quickly. before i know it, i'll be old and getting ready to die. its quite depressing. ive been noticing that the less you have to look forward to in life, the faster time goes by... because youre not waiting for anything exciting to come up. my time has been just slipping through my fingers. i look back and i have nothing to show for it. people have always told me that things get easier... and thats what ive always heard. but from my life experiences so far... things only get harder... its ridiculous. my life as of right now is almost too much for me to handle... and for the last decade, things have only been getting harder. there is no blindfold over my eyes anymore, i know that life isnt going to get any easier, i just hope i can handle what i have coming to me. life is supposed to be a great experience, a time to live, a time to laugh. there is no laughter behind these walls. there is no joy upon my face. there is no glint of life in these eyes. i find that around this time of year things start to get really down and depressing... or i just feel that way atleast... it gets dark early... and cold and gloomy... when winter comes i always feel a sense of being trapped... trapped in something that i can not escape from. a feeling of being doomed. its just as if death is hanging over all our heads. if anybody has any idea what im talking about, you know its a horrible feeling to have... im not even sure im making any sense right now... im just blabbing on about what i was thinking in my head. my life isnt all that exciting right now... its actually kind of sad, im just waiting for things to pass...
now for a little bit of what ive been doing lately...
i work a 1-5 job monday-friday... not too many hours but its all i can handle right now... i build and fix computers, im a regular geek, but its fun. my wknd begins friday at 5, and ends monday at 1. i try to make the best of my wknds and try to have as much fun as possible here in this craptacular little town. i went to TOOL at the Breslin Center in East Lansing Michigan last week. it was pretty cool, since im Breslin and it was at the Breslin Center... i never hear of too many things with my name, it was pretty interesting.
i havent been to T-Dot in a while to visit the TIG office, but i think im about due for a trip there soon, i really need some time away. anyways i just felt like i should update... since i havent in months.